niftylily

2008-10-11T22:07:00.009+08:00

I'm not dead yet but my digital camera is. Either send it for repair or just buy a new one since I've checked, and the price is pretty reasonable. I need it fast for three main reasons; Marceles jalan raya on the 18th, NWA Batam trip on the 24th-26th and Ungu's concert on the 31st of this month.

I've got tons of pictures to post but I'm too lazy to edit, resize, upload to Photobucket and publish here. Next time!

Keep me sane.

2008-09-20T21:34:00.002+08:00

The real nobody.

2008-09-20T20:22:00.005+08:00

I feel a tremendous amount of resentment and sadness. Choose to distant myself away from everyone and lock myself in the room, hoping that by sleeping, everything will be alright.

I feel lost.
I feel insecure.
I don't feel loved.

I need, need my dear ones to be empathetic.
To be there when I'm at my worst.

PMS. That is what it does to me. Sigh.

Dust it off, don’t let up.

2008-09-14T21:55:00.006+08:00

A quick update of the overdue pictures before ringing up boyfriend who's in camp playing games, I suspect, and heading to bed soon after. A new week to anticipate. New stuffs to learn. Did I mention I love my current job? The people? The environment? It has been great so far. Hope it stays that way. Alright, pictures! And more to come!

SMALL WORLD EH BOYFRIEND

2008-09-13T15:22:00.001+08:00

Heavy-headed right now. But, I'm still good. Im still good.

2008-09-12T23:19:00.004+08:00

THANK GOD IT'S FRIDAY!

I've been lethargic and sleepy this whole week. Need to sleep. Goodnight!

21st.

2008-09-07T00:00:00.002+08:00

A very happy 21st birthday, hon. More good health and wealth coming your wayyy.
I love you, always and forever.

Waterfest Singapore 08

2008-08-31T20:20:00.002+08:00

Anyway, I'm proud of boyfriend and his team, for getting through to the semi-finals of Beach Ball Championship 2008, at Siloso Beach earlier today.
MWAHMWAH!

2008-08-31T19:56:00.006+08:00

I have to have this.
And I got it.
Note to self:

N-E-E-D T-O C-U-R-B S-P-E-N-D-I-N-G H-A-B-I-T-S

4bia.

2008-08-31T14:03:00.002+08:00

4bia also known as Phobia.
You guys HAVE to watch this movie.
It has four short stories and it's super good.
And hilarious.
And scares the shit out of you.
How GOOD is that?
4 stars!

2008-08-29T22:28:00.002+08:00

I miss this little ~~evil~~ boy here. Oh and after a month, daddy's finally home. With crutches that is.

So please don't, please don't, please don't hesitate.

2008-08-28T18:58:00.002+08:00

As promised.

2008-08-24T18:02:00.004+08:00

Singapore Flyer

Singapore Fireworks Celebration 2008

Back begins to tingle.

2008-08-20T14:36:00.006+08:00

A good read.

Been searching for this.

Singapore Fireworks Celebration 2008 will spark off on 22 and 23 August at Marina Bay, 9pm. Us at the SFC last year.

Pictures of our trip to the Singapore Flyer at the next update. Boyfriend have been bugging me to post them snapshots(!!).

080808

2008-08-08T23:40:00.003+08:00

BOYFRIEND, LETS TIE THE KNOT ON 12/12/12 OKAY?

18th.

2008-08-07T00:00:00.003+08:00

I believe in us. I've always wished that it could all be easy one day, but with all that we've been through together, I think we can really do this. We can really do this. I love you.

2008-07-31T12:42:00.004+08:00

This morning, I was praying so hard that dad will not be warded at the local hospital but I was dismayed to learn the truth. Nothing serious I hope, though I know it has to do with his old ailment. Mum and brother's already there 'cept me. Heading to TTSH later.

Come away with me.

2008-07-28T14:50:00.005+08:00

Yesterday, I had not been expecting, given my agitated state of mind, to be soothed by, of all things or anyone. I had no food to eat, no proper home cooked food and all there that's available were the junks which at the sight, really turned me off. Don't even mention boyfriend. He just seem to have.. dissapeared.

It's not often that dearest daddy fall sick but when he does, you can be prepared for a whole lot of whimpering, just like a child. He vomitted twice yesterday and didn't manage to get to the latrine on time. Imagine the mess he made.. But all is good now.

My read for now.

I'm so eager to get my hands on these!

Crazy or what!

2008-07-21T20:22:00.008+08:00

It was raining like literally the whole day since last night. Crazy or what! So me, donned in Abercrombie & Fitch pullover, went to get the loots today and then to Marine Parade. I got lost there and started panicking and walking umpteen times down that same pavement only to realise that I'm actually at the right place! Crazy or what!

And then the bus ride made me dizzy since it took forever to reach home. It didn't help that the faddy nyonya beside me kept talking on the "phone" when in actual fact, she's not even holding one. She went on and on, blabbering and snorting and not get that teeny bit tired! Oh and did I mention, she made phone calls to some random people and quickly shove it back in her bag and god knows what happened to the other end of the call. Crazy or what!

I thought my nightmare was over when she finally alight the bus but this reeky ahpek just had to sit next to me. Crazy or what!

What a day, really! But my purchases today including this lookalike headband but in gold(Selling headbands at my lj!) and donuts from Donut Master(Donut Factory and Munchy Donut are still the best!), turn me into a happy and contented bunny. But them banknotes like to think otherwise.

Wishlist! Wishlist! Wishlist! I'm going bracelet crazy.

2008-07-16T13:32:00.000+08:00

I'm still here 'cos I remembered about an email that was sent to me a few weeks ago.

Please support by clicking on the ad itself on the stated days. Thank you!

Hollywood's Best Dressed Little Girls.

2008-07-14T12:02:00.002+08:00

#10: Ava Phillippe

#9: Eden & Savannah

#8: Matilda Ledger

#7: Valentina Pinault

#6: Harlow Madden

#5: Willow Smith

#4: Lola Consuelos

#3: Violet Affleck

#2: Shiloh Jolie-Pitt

#1: Suri Cruise

Miss Universe 2008

2008-07-14T11:06:00.004+08:00

Top 5

4th runner-up: Mexico, Elisa Najera

3rd runner-up: Russia, Vera Krasova

2nd runner-up: Dominican Republic, Marianne Cruz Gonzalez

1st runner-up: Colombia, Taliana Vargas

Winner: Venezuela, Dayana Mendoza

Oh boy.

2008-07-05T13:55:00.004+08:00

I swear I get real high looking at David Beckham(!!!) and Justin Timberlake. They are by far the hottest and sexiest men alive. Anyway, it's the Becks nine years anniversary yesterday. Just love to see their photo journey from past till the present day now.

The Beckhams stages of life

Neon.

2008-06-25T14:46:00.007+08:00

This is a way of showing how much I love, give all my heart to, my undying love for

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MAC COSMETICS!

Burning liver.

2008-06-23T13:39:00.004+08:00

Boyfriend is really grouchy when he does not have enough sleep. Thanks to Mas Selamat and the endless search for him. Can't wait for later hon but you should catch up on your sleep first!

So anyway, my fingers are stained now 'cos I was eating Soup Tulang in the middle of the night! I suddenly had this unusual cravings for them bone marrow. I swear by the Beach Road Soup Tulang. No where else can quite get the recipe right I must say. I tell you, sucking at the marrow of life can leave you in a delightful delirium. You know you're good if the bone marrow wobbles out in one unbroken, slithery piece.

But I really should heed my therapist's advice; no more supper or late nights if you want clear and beautiful skin.

That reminds me of the Euro Cup. Spain or the runner-ups? We'll see, we'll see.

Red please.

2008-06-16T22:16:00.004+08:00

The family were talking about changing to a new car over dinner yesterday. So will it be the new Lancer? We'll soon know.

Black and gold.

2008-06-13T23:47:00.006+08:00

Oh dear.
I'm abandoning my blog over something else.
Go figure!
And I've said this in 2006, I'll say it again.
Holland all the way!

Sunny bunny.

2008-06-09T13:18:00.001+08:00

Marceles Juniors got themselves a new jerseyyyyy.

Want or need?

2008-06-05T12:53:00.005+08:00

I want them dresses from Juicy Coutureeeeeeeeee.

Bright and early.

2008-06-05T08:51:00.007+08:00

I got a panic attack when I can't login to my Blogger account and then when I can eventually log in, my blog is not there, the blog simply disappeared! Oh my. F5 punching marathon does prove to be of some use ~~sometimes~~ all the time. Haha.

Best for last.

2008-06-01T19:55:00.002+08:00

How time flies, huh? It's been one month prior to the road accident and I have to say, I am recovering well. But I won't be in denial of the fact that there's scars and marks everywhere. I just hope it will fade away with time and most importantly, it will not affect my chances of securing that dream job of mine.

So, it's Sunday today and it's a very humdrum one at that. Mum did not cook and I had Canadian pizza for breakfast, lunch, tea-time and dinner. Haha. It's not that bad actually since I've been busy surfing the net the whole day. My eyes are getting weary and sleepy, I'd better get out of here now.

Marceles Juniors turn 10.

2008-06-01T15:23:00.005+08:00

Yesterday was Marceles Juniors 10th year anniversary and so we had an outing to celebrate the occasion. We had dinner at Sakura International Buffet Restaurant(Clementi Woods Park outlet) and then to Vivo City where we just hang around till late. We sure had so much fun and laughter, don't we?

20th.

2008-05-26T16:55:00.013+08:00

The "surprise" birthday celebration last night was kinda predictable but those avalanche foam sprays really took me by surprise. I didn't saw that coming guys! Bestfriend and I went to Singapore Expo in the evening(the Robinsons sale is crazy!) before picking up the guys and heading to Bugis for our usual sheesha+card games session. It was almost midnight where they decided to send me back home and there and then the unexpected happened- at my void deck.

Thank youuuuu guys and thanks for all those wishes. But most importantly, I love boyfriend because he's the best boyfriend ever. We'll meet this weekend alright, hon? I can't wait to turn 21 next year but I'll be forever 21 thereafter (:

Twenty (:

2008-05-26T00:00:00.003+08:00

"For long you live and high you fly and smiles you'll give and tears you'll cry and all you touch and all you see is all magic."

Ubin Trip.

2008-05-20T21:07:00.007+08:00

I'm so lazy to update about the Pulau Ubin outing last Sunday with a total of 11 people going for that adventure trip. Plus I'm watching Prison Break online and it gets interesting the more I watch it that my eyes are glued to the screen! We did biking and hiking on Sunday but thank god my legs are no longer aching now. It was a great experience since we had our very own Ubin guide!

More pictures at Fareha's bloggy.

My schedule for this week is so tight. There's the soccer match tomorrow, facial on Thursday, outings over the weekend. That means I'm only free on Friday!

Okay back to more Prison Break. Now on DVD.

2008-05-15T23:18:00.003+08:00

Boyfriend so adorable, can?

2008-05-15T12:36:00.001+08:00

I is so bored.

One week. Fifteen months.

2008-05-07T20:51:00.005+08:00

It's already been one week prior to the road accident that boyfriend and I was involved in but thank god no lives were lost. I've already removed the bandage two days ago but my poor leg is still not showing signs of improvement, yet. I've been an emotional wreck these few days but you can't blame me because of the obvious reason. Okay gross part ahead, but it's for my own record, really.

*pictures removed

I just hope to recover fast with minimal scarring. And happy 15th to us. Love you, baby.

2008-05-02T19:40:00.003+08:00

Last Wednesday night..

Scream for ice-cream.

2008-04-28T22:49:00.004+08:00

Free unlimited ice-cream tomorrow at all Ben & Jerry's outlets from 12 to 7pm.

2008-04-26T20:07:00.003+08:00

Marié(Ma-ree-ay) Christina Digby.
Half Irish, half Japanese.

Bring me love.

2008-04-26T19:20:00.004+08:00

Happy 53th birthday dearest daddy.
And in exactly a month time from now, I will turn 20 myself. Let's get married, hon. Haha. No, I'm serious.

2008-04-25T12:59:00.002+08:00

I fear I may have tonsillitis.

More and more I start to realize.

2008-04-21T20:31:00.003+08:00

'Cause all we are we are
All we are we are
And everyday is a start of something beautiful
Everyday is a start of something real

Ain's 20th birthday surprise.

2008-04-21T19:54:00.004+08:00

This is way overdue on the 18th. We planned to surprise her at her mum's restaurant(Norlin Restaurant at Jurong West) and she was shocked alright when we sneaked up behind her with the cake and birthday song. In short, it was a great day with great company and not forgetting those foods. The foods were awesome I tell you. Okay pictures courtesy from Shaf!

Bestfriend's 20th birthday surprise!

2008-04-10T12:37:00.004+08:00

I like how things went as planned yesterday or even better I have to say. Thanks to us, the iRandom and not forgetting Fareha's Poly mates for being part of the birthday surprise.

I hope that it will somehow cheer you up. I know of the fact that you have not been in one of your best moods lately what with your only sibling just gotten married and reminiscing about how your late dad was so, so close to you, it just breaks my heart. But one thing you can be sure of - we will be there for you, in good times or bad ones. I am here to stay. Yours forever.

Wedding bells part 2.

2008-04-08T15:21:00.011+08:00

Last week was extremely eventful, tiring but really worth it. I sleptover bestfriend's house on Thursday right up till Sunday. There were alot of foods, helping out, late nights with the usual clans, laughing in the middle of the night 'cos of snoring people, freezing 'cos of the aircon, meeting boyfriend on one of the days, countless times taking pictures, Mr Cameraman, lack of sleeping hours which result in me getting really drained out on Sunday but all was fine. Everyhing was smooth-sailing. Thank god for that. And no, Hady Mirza didn't turned up on Sunday 'cos he was busy preparing for APM this year. In case you are wondering how he is related to bestfriend's brother, they are actually close friends during their Poly years together. So, tonnes of pictures as promised.

5th April 2008
Solemnization Ceremony at Pasir Ris

7th April 2008
Block Wedding at 293

They say, it's not right and it won't last.

2008-04-08T11:19:00.004+08:00

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2008-04-07T14:20:00.006+08:00

*edited*

If I know what love is, it's because of you.
Happy 14 months sweetheart.
Back! Fareha's brother's wedding was a simple affair but I enjoyed every minute of it during the four days and three nights at her house. Proper update real soon after I have sorted out all the pictures.

Wedding bells part 1.

2008-03-30T18:00:00.005+08:00

So today was my relative's wedding. And to my suprise, the theme was black and white. Again. Very pretty indeed. What with the chandeliers, red roses, white feathers, black laces and more decorating the dais. And not forgetting the bride and groom who was, without a doubt the main attraction of the day. I felt like getting married myself. Haha.

So here's a picture of the dais. Remember one year ago, my cousin, Kak Lin, got married and the theme was also black and white? I think these colours are the rage between young couples nowadays.

This leave us with exactly one more week to bestfriend's brother's solemnization and wedding ceremony. I'm gonna sleepover her house on Thursday and I can forsee it will be a one unforgettable event. Everyone's getting excited including me! Will certainly update here. Till then.

Forever and for always.

2008-03-29T22:15:00.003+08:00

I just feel like putting up boyfriend's picture in this post for no apparent reason. Wait, there is a reason for that. I want to be able to see him everytime I visit my blog. Eventhough we rarely meet, looking at your adorable face just leave a smile on my face.

Monday. The day is Monday. Can barely wait!(:

Lovey dovey.

2008-03-27T23:31:00.010+08:00

The short meetup with bf just now was all that I could ask for. He's the sweetest, sweetest angel. I just come to realise how lucky I am to have known him, to have held him close, to have him by my side always. Always. For everything that we've been through together, it does makes us stronger and inseparable from each other. And I thank god for that. I love you.

Oh well, he's back in camp now. I miss him already. How? And I heard from him that he, with the rest of the soldiers from the Military Police will step down from the search of Mas Selamat Kastari somewhere in mid April. That's a huge, huge relief on my part. This is dragging on for too long and its getting nowhere. It's only right, isn't it? The police will continue with the hunt of course and do a better job. That I'm sure of.

This Sunday, my relative will get married while besfriend's brother on the next week. I'm most excited about the latter. I can't wait. And who knows, if we are lucky enough, Asian Idol, Hady Mirza will be there at the block wedding on the 6th. Tonnes of pictures post will be up by then. Hope everything will turn out fine on that day. Everything will be fine.

This is the most craziest shit ever.

2008-03-23T16:27:00.010+08:00

Okay so here's the deal. I wake up with terrible cramps and baddd mood swings that I totally shun everyone in this household and bf is not helping much either. I was mad at him yesterday that I planned to ignore him til this morning, hoping that everything's gonna be alright by today.

The thing is, I know you're busy with life in camp and having no phone at the moment is already depressing enough. But I really hate it when you come looking for me only when you feel like it. I haven't seen you in a very long time and we haven't talked much either but I can't believe soccer is what you choose to do once you book out. I will not tolerate this. I will take you on. So, I told myself that I'm going to completely ignore you for the rest of today.

I don't even know why I'm blogging about this. Maybe I'm just alone at home and I need something to vent my frustations onto. I haven't had anything to eat since morning and I'm a very grumpy girl now.

Spring is here!

2008-03-20T14:45:00.004+08:00

Spring is a time of growth, renewal, of new life being born. There's so much to do during this season- spring recipes, craft ideas, word puzzles, holidays and even spring cleaning!

I just love the warmth from it. The sun, the sky, the plants are exceptionally beautiful now. (Though I'm living in Singapore and we don't have the four temperate seasons here.)

2008-03-20T00:05:00.002+08:00

I feel so cold tonight and all I need, all I need, is you.

When did you get so lost?

2008-03-18T12:55:00.002+08:00

The five of us(read: Citra missing in photo) watched The Spiderwick Chronicles last Sunday at Lido Cineplex. The tickets were only priced at $5 as it was a special screening only for members of iforgotthenameofthecompany. And oh boy was the movie like a rollercoaster ride. It was good. Better than a horror movie I guess. Why? 'Cos we were practically shouting, covering our eyes and etc. I didn't know what came over us that day but we had fun.

I'm currently doing alot or research on something and piling all of the information into one document before printing it out. I love doing research. I don't know why but maybe it's just in me. I get the thrill from doing it. At the end of the day, I'm equipped with more facts. It's enriching and satisfying at the same time.

Oh and bf is booking out tomorrow!!! That was meant to be said with much enthusiasm. (The exclamation marks are for effect).

Okay got to go. I have an appointment later and better don't forget to cut my fringe too.

We leave tonight or live and die this way.

2008-03-15T20:56:00.005+08:00

Life has been very simple lately. I've been by myself alot. I found it disturbing at first but now it's starting to grow on me. We've all been preoccupied dealing with our own stuff but I know that we know when it's time to find each other.

Oh I cooked pasta yesterday. My first attempt and I'm pretty proud of it. Haha. Nothing much actually. Just throwing in all the ingredients together and I'm basically done. Haha. And don't forget to add lots of cheese 'cos you'll love how it melts onto the pasta. Mmm.

And did you notice Mister Sun is back? I hope he stays there for good 'cos I love the weather just now. Fluffy clouds and a clear blue sky. The sunshine brings warmth like the perfect light jacket, and it all just makes me smile. Sometimes you wonder how you could frown when it all feels so right. No matter how much things are going wrong, taking a breath of fresh air should help relieve some of the stress.

But I don't know why I have this bad feeling about next week. I guess I think too much. I miss the good old days when I'm carefree and don't have to bother about anything. I want everything to be back per normal. Everybody should play a part in this but ultimately, it all starts with me.

2008-03-15T17:53:00.004+08:00

Sigh. I know I am strong and this chapter will eventually tide over but I'm missing you so much. I hope I can see you next week 'cos it been three weeks. Three long weeks, love.

Niftylily bargain affair 1.

2008-03-14T15:23:00.007+08:00

I'm selling this ruched front dress from Wetseal.
Selling price is $36.
Price is negotiable.
Brand new with tags still attached.
Size: S.
Colour: Mustard.
Email me here.

2008-03-13T23:27:00.001+08:00

You're a carousel
You're a wishing well
And you light me up
When you ring my bell
You're a mystery
You're from outer space
You're every minute of my every day

2008-03-13T15:45:00.005+08:00

I wrote a complaint letter to MINDEF. Yes hon, I wasn't kidding when I said I'll write to them.

So now I can say I'm a full-fledged Singaporean; I wrote a complaint letter.

Oh Mister Sun.

2008-03-13T14:07:00.004+08:00

It has been raining heavily with occasional thunder these past few days and staying at home seems to be the only option. We don't want to be caught in the rain don't we? Neither do we want to sink our feets into those puddles of water. It's cold and I very much dislike the wet feel.

And so, with the ongoing monsoon season, I always refer to the weather forecast especially the 3 days outlook should I have any plans on that day.

I want Mister Sun to rise back soon.

Look out, look out, here she comes now.

2008-03-10T23:36:00.005+08:00

Went to Ikea with bestfriend this evening and the shuttle bus that took us to and fro was bloody slow and so jam-packed with people and smelly too. Wonder where that smell came from. By the way, our favourite part of Ikea are the kids section. Haha.

So, she wanted to get a rack for clothes but we managed to get a good deal at Courts instead. Will be heading there again tomorrow to purchase it.

This clog footwear seems to be everywhere in Ikea. Comes in many colours and sizes at only $4.50 per pair(I think).

Cause my world revolves around you.

2008-03-09T12:52:00.002+08:00

I think I need to loosen up abit 'cos I seriously have difficulty gasping for air. No kidding.

2008-03-08T19:17:00.001+08:00

Today, today is where everything falls apart.

This crazy world we're living in is magical.

2008-03-07T11:54:00.005+08:00

Happy 13th to us.

Sigh.

I have not seen you since last Sunday and I will not be seeing you nor hearing from you until late next week. This is killing me and I only have Mas Selamat to blame.

Just when I thought today's gonna be a perfect day where we can spend some alone time together, he just had to tell me the bad news that it was his turn to activate for the ops.

Why must they involve the NSFs regarding the manhunt for Mas Selamat(Macam Sial)?
Why don't the police quickly nab him and sentence him to death or something?
Why don't this Macam Sial just turn himself him and give everyone a break?

I am truly filled with fury and angst.

Sigh.

Take this heart and hold it.

2008-03-05T19:59:00.008+08:00

Sakura buffet for dinner yesterday with the family.

And brother bought this today.

For everything that we've been through together, I know that we can really do this.
We can really do this.
I love you so.

2008-03-04T13:08:00.001+08:00

Are we really strong enough?

2008-03-01T23:25:00.002+08:00

I don't know what else to do.
I don't know what else to say.
I'm trying my very best but I just cant help it.
I just can't help but feel there's no more.

2008-02-29T13:53:00.001+08:00

Last night as I lay dreaming
This strangest kind of feeling
Revealed its secret meaning
And now I know
I've never ever been to paradise
I've never ever seen no angel's eyes
I'll never ever let this magic die
No matter where you are
You are my lucky star
I love you

Manhunt for militant suspect.

2008-02-28T14:18:00.008+08:00

Have you already heard? The leader of the Jemaah Islamiyah(JI), Mas Selamat Kastari, escaped from the Internal Security Department's Detention Centre at Whitley Road at around 4pm yesterday.

Thousands of police officers, Gurkhas and men from the elite Special Operations Command and not forgetting the soldiers from the Military Police, have been searching for the terrorist through the night.

My poor boyfriend have not been getting any sleep since last night. I hope the police will get ahead with his actions and nab him as soon as possible. I want to meet my baby this Saturday.

Paint it golden.

2008-02-28T12:12:00.004+08:00

Planned to bask in the sun at Sentosa last week and so we made our way there yesterday, and oh boy the bus rides were torturous I swear. Bumpy rides certainly did not helped much when you just had Sausage McMuffin with Egg meal for breakfast earlier on.

All of us agreed on going to Pahlawan since its quieter there. Well, we managed to find a decent spot on the beach and settled down. Took some photos together before hitting the sand and the waves.

The water was so cold and the sun was scorching hot! We got too bored of the water soon after and started playing card games where the three of us got abit hyper. Must be the result of too much card games.

I think I saw tadpoles or ikan bilis or something where me and bestfriend got so excited running around and trying to step on them. Haha.

We went back to Vivo after that and looked around for handphones, bought tickets to a 7pm movie and had dinner at two places. Our day pretty much ended with a full stomach, happy and contented people and not forgetting a very inflammed and tanned body.

Last night...

2008-02-25T22:00:00.007+08:00

Al-Tazzaq for shisha and a few rounds of card games, Aplz Cafe for the Chel-Totten match and lastly, Adam's Corner for supper.

Utopia.

2008-02-23T21:14:00.004+08:00

I don't normally have the monthly cramps but oh boy does it hurt so badly this morning! Nothing beats a warm cup of tea and lazing around in bed, drapes slightly pulled and music from Goldfrapp in the background. Still, the pain won't go away. I read from somewhere that sex can help reduce the muscle contraction. Haha.

I have a weird sleeping pattern nowadays and it's bothering the hell out of me. I kept waking up at 4 or 5 in the morning and getting back to sleep an hour later. Funny thing is that I can sleep until the sun is up! Not something I am proud of though.

I need a chill pill tomorrow.

Can't believe it's 10pm now. I got sidetracked alot during blogging. Okay chiao.

Distant star.

2008-02-22T20:31:00.002+08:00

I hate this feeling right now. Kind of where there's numbness and feeling all lost and spacey. I just want to do nothing but write out a list to spill my guts, but I don't want to let anyone see me cry. I know I am strong and I can do this but I can't help but break sometimes. This is all starting to get emotionally exhausting but I know, I know it'll get better someday.

On a lighter note, I'm trying my luck and going for the interview this Sunday morning. Hope everything's gonna turn out well. Everything's gonna turn out well. Insyaallah.

2008-02-22T20:24:00.000+08:00

It could take us a whole lifetime to make this right.

Pastel ward.

2008-02-22T00:16:00.002+08:00

Argh, I've just changed the background a few minutes ago and now I'm hating this blardy red colour. Need to change it to calm my nerves. Calm my nerves.

2008-02-21T23:51:00.003+08:00

I would, if it would make you.

Today, today...

2008-02-16T22:02:00.002+08:00

I'm glad everything's alright now. Everything's alright now.

These days.

2008-02-11T14:21:00.001+08:00

I have no time to update about the recent events in my life. Okay, actually I'm lazy.
I'm even lazy to moderate my Friendster's friend requests. And my PMS is acting up again. Great.

You, only.

2008-02-07T00:04:00.000+08:00

Can't believe it's been a year, sweetheart.

2008-02-03T12:53:00.000+08:00

OMG. I HAVE NEVER EVER RIDDEN IN A BMW BEFORE AND LAST NIGHT WAS MY FIRST. WHAT MORE IT'S THE BMW 5 SERIES. SUPER SLEEK IN BLACK. INTERIOR OF CAR IS EVEN MORE IMPRESSIVE. OMG SILAH I'M GOING TO KILL YOU. SO LUCKY LA U. CAN U SEE HOW EXCITED I AM RIGHT NOW.

Strawberry fields forever.

2008-01-29T15:03:00.000+08:00

The sweetest show ever,

with the cutest co-star, James Marsden.

What else, go watch it!

Long road to ruin.

2008-01-24T15:04:00.000+08:00

Cloverfield is by far, the worst movie I have ever watch in my entire life. Really. I'm not exaggerating.

"Omg, omg, did you see that?, did you see that?"

Blah.

2008-01-24T01:23:00.000+08:00

HEATH LEDGER, DEAD.

And I thought the next potential dead celeb would be Britney or Lindsay or the Olsen twins. Oh well.

Make way.

2008-01-24T01:20:00.000+08:00

Another layout done. Got too bored of that floral thing.

2008-01-22T16:46:00.001+08:00

I used to know this girl
Who gave her love away
To every guy she met
And with all the games they played
She never seemed to cry
She never got upset
And one by one they came
And one by one they left
I thought that I could fix her
If she would let me in
But all of my advances
Were shut down in the end
When days turned into months
I begged her to explain
And this is what she sang

It's not like I'm a slut
Or that I really like to fuck
I just want every boy I see
To walk away with part of me
Until there's nothing left to hold
Until there's nothing left to hate
I appreciate your help
But even you can't save me from myself

It's not like I am weak
Or that I don't know how to leave
It's just that every time you cheat
You bring me closer to defeat

Until there's nothing left to love
Until there's nothing left to say
I know that you need help
But even I can't save you from yourself

A safer place.

2008-01-22T15:53:00.000+08:00

I realise that I miss quite a number of my close friends, bestfriend in particular but I'm not doing anything about it. I'm not sure why either. We should really meet up and catch up on each other soon.

I'm already done with this month's module which explains why I'm free to change abit of my layout 'cos the previous one totally had to go.

So, when are you free, bestfriend?

Sweenny Todd. What say you?

I'll find a way.

2008-01-18T11:55:00.000+08:00

Very bad mood swing.
PMS.
Overwhelming sadness for no reason.
Depressed.
I desperately need _____.

AHH! I can just jump off from my 6th storey room window right now. Then I will be rid of all thoughts and feelings.

On a different note, I need a 3-inch heels. Anyone have?

I'm so pathetic. I hate going through this phase in life. And I'm hating this goddamn pink layout. Sigh.

2008-01-12T11:04:00.000+08:00

You guys should seriously watch 'A Shot At Love with Tila Tequila'. GO GO.

Which one?

2008-01-10T21:59:00.000+08:00

Remember the 010108 post? So which one did I ended up buying?

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The answer is both.

But not exactly. The white psp is my brother's but he's no longer using it as he's already working. So, I get to use it all the time. Silly me actually thought of buying a new one.

What phone model?

I shall not reveal that.

That aside, I'm feeling very positive about today's interview. Next phonecall from them is what I will be expecting. Cross fingers.

Twaddle.

2008-01-09T21:07:00.000+08:00

This few days, I kept hearing all sort of advertising campaign from various Polytechnics on radio just to attract those secondary school graduants to come to their school. So, here goes my main motive in blogging:

"What was the turning point in your life?"- Come to Temasek Polytechnic Open House starting tomorrow till Saturday!

Too bad I'm not participating in this year's fashion show by the ADM students. I swear I had great fun last year. Three days in a row. The friends. The music. The rehearsals. The final day itself. The waiting room. The food. Haha. And then there was the Spring Seduction at Jurong Point. Soo much fun. The experience gained was awesome.

Oh yar, I have this bisol at my elbow and it's all red and swollen. Damn painful to even touch and I have fever as a result.

Anyway, I have an interview tomorrow. Shan't reveal what's it about. Today, I made my way to Jean Yip to cut my fringe and she said I look like a doll from the aftermath of cutting. HAHA.

Tell me, tell me.

2008-01-06T17:16:00.001+08:00

Sentosa yesterday with bf and his soccer friends were fun despite the rain. And I didn't even took a single photo. How dumb. Guess I was busy enjoying myself.. After all those water, ball games and not forgetting silly games to keep us occupied during the heavy downpour, we changed and went back to Vivo. Had dinner after much comtemplation of the venue.

Now, I'm just a step away from getting a PSP. The only thing that's stopping me from actually geting it is because of that Motorola phone. Why? 'Cos I HAVE to make a decision and choose one!!

010108

2008-01-01T22:20:00.000+08:00

What a way to end 2007. I mean it was good. Real good. Spent my Sunday with bf and although the plan didn't go the way we wanted, the time spent together was great. And suddenly I miss my long hair. You know back then when my hair was realyyyyyy long. Ah THAT hair. Now it's short 'cos I have this mindset that I MUST cut my hair before it reaches my urm, chest? Haha.

So yesterday, it was back to school for me. Yup, no more waking up late, lazing around and hanging out with friends and having fun that often anymore. This month's class will be from 9-3. I met up with bestfriend after school and accompanied her to CDC 'cos I was bored. The one hour plus alone with my mp3 and Public Speaking handbook were not that but I was so hungry and I badly wanted to eat so we rushed to Bugis after she ended her practical lesson for lunch. I was still hungry so I forced bestfriend to buy Chewy Juniors. Donuts still the best laa.

And so we met up with the others and proceeded to Esplanade for the Marina Bay Countdown. We reached quite early as we, the kiasu people, HAVE to find a nice spot and sit. Imagine sitting there for like five hours, some with their psp, some with their handphone games but I did nothing! My phone had to died on me 'cos I forgot to charged it that morning. And clever us, didn't bring any card games as well. So we ended up asking teka-teki which was hysterically funny.

I hate the PRs. There were too many of them yesterday. And I hate that Indonesian guy who secretly took my photos who thinks I don't know and pretends to "mingle" wih his camera when he is actually about to snap pictures of me while I give him a few stares. And then there's the banglas with their foam sprays. Argh, they seriously should be banned from events like this.

Oh the fireworks! It was truly amazing. They were of shapes like a planet, hearts to name a few.

Met up with the guys after that and had supper at simpang. That walk was kinda creepy. We ate and chat till morning. By then my eyes were already half-opened, my back was aching, face was oily and red and I just wanted to go home. Reached home at around 4.30am. Love how my 2007 ended and how I ushered in the new year.

Personally my 2007 had alot of ups and downs and in short, it has not been that good to me. Still, I learned alot of things and appreciate them all. I hope my 2008 will kick off with a good start and stay that way. Let's all have a blessed and happy new year. May joy, peace and love be with you in 2008. Cheers to a fruitful year ahead!

Of odours and madwoman.

2007-12-26T23:01:00.000+08:00

Spent my day with bestfriend and her cousin on Christmas day. Town was awfully crowded with Abijeet, Mau Marcelo and Mike's members. Really. They are everywhere. Abijeet member's odours are especially strong in the train. If you know what I mean.

Free movie at Lido was good. Dan in Real Life is a family show with lots of injected humuor is worth a watch. Kinda boring at first. True. But it got better and funnier soon after.

It's also a day of cursing(read: stupid security guard at Lido), butterfingers(read: my bad), crazy indonesian maid who's an attention-seeker and seemed like someone who hasn't had any food for days(!!)(read: touring the restaurant smiling to strangers and eating like a gorilla), photos and more photos and not forgetting foods!

After everything that had happened, funny how everything falls into place that day. I had fun. We had fun. And aching legs too.

The last goodnight.

2007-12-23T20:10:00.000+08:00

Oh I don't do those tagging quiz or whatever you call it. So sorry hor wawa.

It has been a week since my gum infection, and yes I'm recovering with the help of only Panadol Extra. No visit to the dental clinic, no antibiotics and what not. I already stopped taking those pills 'cos its not healthy to consume too much of it.

Met bf on Tuesday, Friday and supposedly today but was cancelled because.. Argh I do not want to talk about it.

On Thursday which was Hari Raya Haji, my family and I went to both my grandma, aunt and uncle's house who by the way, just had a lung operation. This is what smoking does to your health and body.

Yesterday was a day of magazines, cosy bed and cold, cold rain.

Today, so pissed. Goodnight all.

Hiatus.

2007-12-19T12:49:00.000+08:00

My wisdom tooth is killing me. I have gum infection since Sunday and it's bloody swollen. I feel numb, pain in the mouth and neck! Using Salonplas at the latter does not help one bit! The thought of surgery just scares the hell out of me, so NO to wisdom teeth extraction.

Will be back soon. Till then.

Simple things.

2007-12-13T22:26:00.000+08:00

I have amazing, amazing people in my life. Yes I do.

Tell me about it..

2007-12-13T13:19:00.000+08:00

Met up with best friend at Orchard yesterday after her practical lesson and we had lunch at her "favourite" place. After that were all shopping sprees, browsing stuffs and just walking around to kill time. I forced her to take the picture above.

Then dinner at Tong Seng. My best friend, she is getting more and more irritating with her whining and complaining and to think she's older than me. She is in need of some serious therapy.

Gimme more.

2007-12-11T15:01:00.000+08:00

I'm back yesterday night at around 9+. 4 days 3 nights in Cameron Highlands and KL. First night in the bus was super cold and the stars were especially bright and glowing. Reached Tambun in the morning on the very next day.

Smelly us who can't wait for the water rides!

Then we set off for Cameron which was so so cold. My skin condition was not too good and my lips are dry. Lip balm helps alot. Love the scenery+clouds.

Our hotel was good too. Calling out to the others from the balcony was fun. Breakfast the next morning..

Tea plantation.

Fresh strawberries. I swear the strawberry milkshake was good! I was so glad I didn't throw up on the way down to KL. I usually will. That's why breakfast is good for us.

Dunkin Donuts in the bus while on the way to Eye on Malaysia!

Thank god it didn't rain that much. The ride was okay. Bet ours are even better! Shopping spree after that followed by dinner. We did our last-minute shopping too the next day before home sweet home.

Oh yar, my cousin, Diyana(Friendster), was featured in yesterday's Berita Harian under Sastera Remaja section.

I miss bf.